Chapter Of My Life

Don't you ever wish you were someone else? I do. I wish I was someone else, someone who have her very own 'girl bestfriend'. I haven't had one for a very long time. The last time was in high school. I don't even have many friends. I have this fear of letting people in. People will come and go and people too,sometimes will just come, stab you on your back, and bang! they're gone forever. I always wanted a 'girl bestfriend'. Someone i can talk to, someone i can share my problems with. It will be pretty awesome to have one.

I can say that my life hasn't been a fairy tale lately. My sister always said to me; "kak,best la jd mcm akak." Well,that's not true. I've been suffering from a skin disease for over a year now. It's awful and hurt sometimes. Imagine you have a snake skin and in process of changing it's skin, under a very hot weather where the skin dries out. Picture that and that is what i'm going through now. I cry sometimes. Mostly at night because the skin dried up so hard that even if i stretch my hands, it will cause 'luka' to it. I used to be embarassed to go out in public because people will keep staring at me and there was this one time - i went for my first class and was trying to find a seat. I was standing beside an arab and smiled at him, he then said "ohh,what's that" loudly and right to my face. I quickly called zayd and went home and never go for that class anymore.

I complained and whined a lot. So a lot. I always asked my mum; "what did i do to deserve this?","asal akak mak?","mak,akak nak kulit akak balik." but something stop me from all those whining.

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB :

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286.

I read this from fara's blog. Thanks fara. It helps me a lot.

Apart from the disease and being alone , you can say my life is kinda perfect. You know why? Because i have,

• The most great and loving and supportive parents. I love you ayah! I love you mak!

• The great sibllings. I love you dd, ally, dan, and cideen!

• A very big and caring families; (cousins,aunties,uncles and also grandmas). I love you all!
  

• Lastly, i have a very caring, and supportive boyfriend. b,i hate chu! =p

Believe me, all you need are these to have a perfect life. With all these, i'm sure you can face anything. Maybe it's true. It does feels great being me after all =).