Fucktard

First paper was fucking fucking sucks! I got blank in the hall and i was sitting there like a statue for almost 20mins. My brain was so packed that it failed to move even when i forced it hard. I answered all, and that's not even a good thing because i know most of them is wrong. Wrong wrong wrong answers. I got back at home and cried. You what 'ralat' is? That's what i'm having now.
Ralat sbb i know how to do but i didn't manage to. And also knowing that i might fail because i'm 6 points away. Bodoh kan?!

I don't really give a fuck about my pointers. Believe me, failing is not a new thing for me. I'm not saying that i fail all the time but i mean i failed before and i don't mind at all because it makes me a better student. Funny i know.

But this semester is so fucking important because i need to help my dad. I have to and i strongly want to. To do that i need to pass my pointer so that i can get PTPTN for next semester.

There's no use to cry now, at least that was what bf advised me and yeah, you are right. So, i so need to get good marks for my other 3 papers and hopefully they can cover up for the paper that i just screwed up this morning.

p/s: Mak and ayah, believe me i am trying so hard to help you both. Seriously.