So Much Of

Things had gone good these past few days. Less fighting with the boyfriend, less pressure with the exam, and apparently less breathing with the lungs. It scares me to death. I had my first attack 2 months ago and another one after was during raya and now it's like everyday. I'm not sure what is it yet, is it asthma or not but the doctor that i went to the first time, gave me these pills called steroids and asked me to eat one in case it attacks me again. It sure does. I'm writing this post because i'm just trying to stay calm right now. I'm having it again but nothing much i can do about it since Z is in the exam hall doing he's exam. I ate the pill but it's not working just yet. (Breath, breath). Despite all that, i also need to go to the bathroom since the last half an hour ago but couldn't do that either because there's a lizard under the fridge. So, have to wait wait wait again until it goes far far away from the toilet.

I have realized that i need to do a lot of waiting now and waiting's making me feeling anxiety which gives me a major blockage to my lungs and also this writing i'm doing is not helping either. So, bye bye. I have a breathe to catch.